Well, it's been a while. I have too many things on my mind to write it in a Facebook status. :) So, alas, it's blog time. Not that I think the world is dying to read about my life, but because I like to have a record of thoughts and what God is doing, and figure maybe, JUST maybe, He might want to use something He is doing in my life to encourage someone else. I also like to post the funny kid-happenings from work. Like the other day when a student seriously said that he only needed glasses to read nonfiction. Excellent. :)
Well tonight so much is on my mind. I think I need to write in order to be able to fall asleep! I am amazed, truly amazed by my God. I could go on and on, but what sticks out to me is the incredible amount of suffering in human lives. "But wait!" you say..."why is that amazing to you?" Because I am aware of the amount of grief I process with those around me who hurt, which causes me to wonder about the weight Jesus held on His shoulders when He hung on the cross. He not only paid the ultimate consequence, but carried each and every one of our consequences-and every hurt that goes with them. He knows, better than anyone ever could, the incredible amount of hurt our hearts can take on.
It's ironic to me-I'm surrounded by many, many hopeless people and it rips me apart inside-and yet there is this deep passion in my heart for those people-it's my heart's mission; my life mission: To introduce my Jesus into the lives of hopeless, hurting, people. I cannot think of any joy in life that has ever come close to what it is like in that moment when you know God placed you somewhere; somewhere specific, to be part of something He was doing. Nothing compares to that. And why does He choose to use ME?! Of all people...I have no idea. That is part of the beauty of His grace-I don't deserve it. I have a growing urgency and expectancy for God to do something great through me in the lives of others. I don't want glory or fame, I just want to make an eternal difference in the lives of others, because that is the only kind of difference that will matter after this life is over.
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