A Time for Everything.
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven ~
2 A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace.
I really stopped to think about this collection of verses from Ecclesiastes-
A time for new starts and a time for endings; a time to invest in others, and a time to dig up what is deep in our hearts. A time to kill the lies of the enemy and heal through the truth of God's Word. A time to tear down negative and destructive patterns and a time to build up others in Christ. A time to be broken over the pain of the world, and a time to laugh at the irony of God's working. A time to attack injustice and a time to pick up broken pieces of lives. A time to hug, and a time to keep distance. A time to pursue, and a time to sit still in the peace of the Lord. A time to hold on to things, and a time to let them go. A time to separate yourself out, and a time to bond yourself together. A time to listen; a time to talk. There is a time to love some things and a time to hate other things. There is even a time to fight, and one to be at peace.
In the past, I have skipped through these too quickly. As of late, I have started, with the help of some mentors, digging deep into Heidi and looking at the root of some things that are "growing" in my life that were not planted by the Word of God. And to be honest, I don't want plants from the world and plants from sinful nature growing in my heart. I want the seeds that God drops and only those seeds, to take root. This is probably the hardest task I have ever set forth in. Maybe because it has thrown me for such a loop...
Things were making a lot of sense in life, and overall, I was feeling pretty good; pretty "with-it" and pretty all together. Don't you just love pride? :) Well, through a string of circumstances involving a good handful of different people that were/are close to me and some heart-to-hearts with some women I respect, trust, and look up to, I realized God was echoing some running themes in my life. Not only that, but it was as if everything I thought I knew about myself and what I do, who I am, and where I'm going, was upturned, unwoven, and undone. It's like I'm back at a starting line, being reminded of what it is I'm running for, and being stripped of everything else in life. I'm questioning my purpose, my motives, my heart, my obedience, my attitude, and my faith. Now, I don't mean questioning in a bad way...I mean I'm being stripped down to my core; to the foundation. I think God is tearing down the life I've found myself in and rebuilding and restoring me to the life He's made for me.
It is not pleasant, I will tell you that right now. It's ugly, it's painful, it's confusing, and it's scary...and only me and God can really do this. There isn't anyone else in my life that can make changes for me or seek the Lord for me-I have to. There is no one else who can take the action for me; I have to. This is the appointed time for me to step back, recalibrate, and listen. I need to relearn what the voice of the Lord sounds like, and re-establish my choice to surrender, obey, and commit. My choice to trust and stand on faith. My choice to know my value and worth in the Lord. My choice to acknowledge who Christ is and that I'm a daughter of the King, highly loved and favored.
I wish that I had not spent the time I have living as this person I was not created to be-insecure, prideful, pushy, filled with anger, suspicious...I could go on and on. It's ugly and I don't want it anymore. I'm learning more, too, about how the enemy takes things that are good and slightly twists them to make them extremely damaging to myself and others I'm connected to. I have fallen for this waaaaay too much and honestly, it is because I don't solidify truth enough in my life. Think about how much garbage the world is constantly trying to plant in our lives. Now think about how much you spend absorbing straight truth. Deficit? Yeah, me too. It's time to turn the tables; time to get myself ironed out in the Lord to be who HE made me to be-whole and wonderful in His sight, so that I may be used to do all that He has planned for me to do.
This is the start of a new journey. It's time.
2 A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace.
I really stopped to think about this collection of verses from Ecclesiastes-
A time for new starts and a time for endings; a time to invest in others, and a time to dig up what is deep in our hearts. A time to kill the lies of the enemy and heal through the truth of God's Word. A time to tear down negative and destructive patterns and a time to build up others in Christ. A time to be broken over the pain of the world, and a time to laugh at the irony of God's working. A time to attack injustice and a time to pick up broken pieces of lives. A time to hug, and a time to keep distance. A time to pursue, and a time to sit still in the peace of the Lord. A time to hold on to things, and a time to let them go. A time to separate yourself out, and a time to bond yourself together. A time to listen; a time to talk. There is a time to love some things and a time to hate other things. There is even a time to fight, and one to be at peace.
In the past, I have skipped through these too quickly. As of late, I have started, with the help of some mentors, digging deep into Heidi and looking at the root of some things that are "growing" in my life that were not planted by the Word of God. And to be honest, I don't want plants from the world and plants from sinful nature growing in my heart. I want the seeds that God drops and only those seeds, to take root. This is probably the hardest task I have ever set forth in. Maybe because it has thrown me for such a loop...
Things were making a lot of sense in life, and overall, I was feeling pretty good; pretty "with-it" and pretty all together. Don't you just love pride? :) Well, through a string of circumstances involving a good handful of different people that were/are close to me and some heart-to-hearts with some women I respect, trust, and look up to, I realized God was echoing some running themes in my life. Not only that, but it was as if everything I thought I knew about myself and what I do, who I am, and where I'm going, was upturned, unwoven, and undone. It's like I'm back at a starting line, being reminded of what it is I'm running for, and being stripped of everything else in life. I'm questioning my purpose, my motives, my heart, my obedience, my attitude, and my faith. Now, I don't mean questioning in a bad way...I mean I'm being stripped down to my core; to the foundation. I think God is tearing down the life I've found myself in and rebuilding and restoring me to the life He's made for me.
It is not pleasant, I will tell you that right now. It's ugly, it's painful, it's confusing, and it's scary...and only me and God can really do this. There isn't anyone else in my life that can make changes for me or seek the Lord for me-I have to. There is no one else who can take the action for me; I have to. This is the appointed time for me to step back, recalibrate, and listen. I need to relearn what the voice of the Lord sounds like, and re-establish my choice to surrender, obey, and commit. My choice to trust and stand on faith. My choice to know my value and worth in the Lord. My choice to acknowledge who Christ is and that I'm a daughter of the King, highly loved and favored.
I wish that I had not spent the time I have living as this person I was not created to be-insecure, prideful, pushy, filled with anger, suspicious...I could go on and on. It's ugly and I don't want it anymore. I'm learning more, too, about how the enemy takes things that are good and slightly twists them to make them extremely damaging to myself and others I'm connected to. I have fallen for this waaaaay too much and honestly, it is because I don't solidify truth enough in my life. Think about how much garbage the world is constantly trying to plant in our lives. Now think about how much you spend absorbing straight truth. Deficit? Yeah, me too. It's time to turn the tables; time to get myself ironed out in the Lord to be who HE made me to be-whole and wonderful in His sight, so that I may be used to do all that He has planned for me to do.
This is the start of a new journey. It's time.
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